How I hate to see you go

Dear New York - How do I love thee?

Am feeling a bit mixed-up about leaving NYC again today. Some of you have stopped me mid-sentence recently for clarification when I'll say that I'm "heading home" or "was just home"... the clarification needed because, well, where exactly *is* home these days? Who can say friends, who can say? Again, I'm just not authorized to answer these questions.

"Maybe that's all family really is... a group of people that miss the same imaginary place." ~Garden State

While that doesn't exactly address where home is, it gives you a feel for why I'm still looking. Turns out, home may also be imaginary, that's all.

Back to New York, which is technically the latest version of home - since I plunked down the money for an apartment in Hell's Kitchen 3 years ago and I've lived here for going on 6 years now (nearing the record rivaled only by San Francisco, for those keeping score). I don't think I have the guts for New York anymore though. I certainly don't have the patience for it. Slowly, slowly, the pluses of 3am Gang Garee Gai Thai delivery are being outweighed by the minuses of sidewalk trash collection and the never-ending smell of pee. Sick.

So, once again, I'm seeking a new home; the current front-runner is Colorado. The mountains are, well, they're so fucking amazing that I can not stop cursing about them, the guy:girl ratio in Summit County is 10:1, people are healthy 'cause they're outdoors all the time, not 'cause they live at the gym, and I've got some seriously good peeps in the area. What else could I possibly need? Thai food in the middle of the night - yes. The Subway so I can have unlimited drinks with dinner - true. But I feel good about making the next move, about trying on a new home for size. Who knows, if this one fits, you might be able to commit some space in your address books for me, in pen. Hmmmm - let's not get crazy now.

... unless of course that OEM job gets in the way. If that happens, then I'll need to find a way to renew my love affair with New York. You can be sure I'll be taking suggestions.